thecages

So there it is - I've accepted S1's offer.

It seems strange that the decision was so difficult to make.
On paper it's clearly the right thing to do, but somehow I wasn't prepared for how much of my ego and self-esteem is tied up in my current status (the reputation, the authority - the car).
Having to now prove myself all over again, to gain respect and trust with a new group of people has left me feeling very exposed and fragile.
But the more distance I get from the decision (even just a few hours) the more I can feel that I'll be OK and that I now have a new, higher mountain to climb.

blah blah whatever.